ALL I WANTED WAS FOR YOU TO CARE
BUT YOU DONT SEEM TO BE BOTHERED
PRETTY LADY
Nur Fadilah
Dyla/Ilah
26 July
Sengkang
[.me.] :
Straightforward
Hysterical
Energetic
Simple
Hate me fer all I care
I dun gif a damn
Coz u r juzt jealous!
Likes:-
-me-
-my family-
-my fwens-
-my cuzzins-
-Farhana aka emo gurl-
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Monday, May 21, 2007
6:03 PM
This pain, this hurt
locked away in my head,
Nobody knows
How inside I am dead.
Blood on my wrist,
There is glass in my hand.
Nobody knows,
They cannot understand.
They don't listen,
So, they can't hear me cry.
Nobody knows,
I just wish I could die.
Shaking fingers,
Grasp this plea for release
Nobody knows
How the pain will not cease.
Sadness bleeding,
Emptying to the floor,
Nobody knows
I always craved for more,
Bleeding slowly
Until my wound will close,
Dying slowly,
Nobody knows...
This pain, this hurt
locked away in my head,
Nobody knows
How inside I am dead.
Blood on my wrist,
There is glass in my hand.
Nobody knows,
They cannot understand.
They don't listen,
So, they can't hear me cry.
Nobody knows,
I just wish I could die.
Shaking fingers,
Grasp this plea for release
Nobody knows
How the pain will not cease.
Sadness bleeding,
Emptying to the floor,
Nobody knows
I always craved for more,
Bleeding slowly
Until my wound will close,
Dying slowly,
Nobody knows...
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
6:01 PM
The door in front of me opens, once, again, I must enter.
The walls around me crumble, once, again, I must fall.
The voice behind me tempts and tortures,
What could have been?
What might have been?
The blood within me surges, once, again, I must drain.
The hope inside me surrenders, once, again, I must pray.
The breathe upon me tempts and tortures,
What could have been?
What might have been?
Day after day, I slip further away.
Night after night, I slowly go insane.
Longing to turn loneliness to treasure.
Longing to turn his pleasure to pain.
Something has to give...
something has to change...
I can't go on like this, anymore,
I'm forced to close the door.
The door in front of me opens, once, again, I must enter.
The walls around me crumble, once, again, I must fall.
The voice behind me tempts and tortures,
What could have been?
What might have been?
The blood within me surges, once, again, I must drain.
The hope inside me surrenders, once, again, I must pray.
The breathe upon me tempts and tortures,
What could have been?
What might have been?
Day after day, I slip further away.
Night after night, I slowly go insane.
Longing to turn loneliness to treasure.
Longing to turn his pleasure to pain.
Something has to give...
something has to change...
I can't go on like this, anymore,
I'm forced to close the door.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
5:53 PM
I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under I yell for help but no one is there to hear itI begin to see the water at eye leveland I kick and flail, fighting to stay above the darkness But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me and I slowly begin to give into the feeling that lies below the water line the waters starts to fill my lungs the lungs that once held so much life yet now they allow the murky water to replace that I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness. But why doesn't someone grab my hand pull me from darkness's grasp?because no one knows I stand at the boundary the boundary between light and darkso I give in to the thing that holds meAll of the strength and all of the courage that I once held in my heart can't save me from the water So I slowly slip below the world of conscientiousness undetected by the occupants of that world I don't want to fight anymore I've given into darkness
I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under I yell for help but no one is there to hear itI begin to see the water at eye leveland I kick and flail, fighting to stay above the darkness But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me and I slowly begin to give into the feeling that lies below the water line the waters starts to fill my lungs the lungs that once held so much life yet now they allow the murky water to replace that I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness. But why doesn't someone grab my hand pull me from darkness's grasp?because no one knows I stand at the boundary the boundary between light and darkso I give in to the thing that holds meAll of the strength and all of the courage that I once held in my heart can't save me from the water So I slowly slip below the world of conscientiousness undetected by the occupants of that world I don't want to fight anymore I've given into darkness
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
5:50 PM
Why am I afraid?
Does anyone know the way I feel?
Or are they all acting?
Does anyone know the pain I feel?
Or do they believe they do?
Are you the one that blames me?
Can you ever understand what I fear?
Why am I afraid?
Does anyone know the way I feel?
Or are they all acting?
Does anyone know the pain I feel?
Or do they believe they do?
Are you the one that blames me?
Can you ever understand what I fear?
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
5:26 PM
Just have no fucking mood today... im rather unwell n im just frustated.. yesterday n today.. wtf!! damn stress at home n at skul.. fuck! Gurls owaes have no freedom of wat to do.. we owaes need to listen to others be good to them n wat we get?? we get a fucking bad treatment.. whu do u guys think we r?? ur slave?? we gurls oso do have our own feelings.. cnnt do this cnnt do that!! stop all this nonscense u guys!!! i have nvr ever stop anione frm doing anithing.. whu the hell cares.?? all of u guys are grown ups! u knw wats right n wrong fer u.. so wat if im destroying myself..?? do u knw hw i feel?? absolutely not!!! im so tortured.. im like a prisoner in the clutches of guys!! damn it!! how i wish there is no law n i could kill the ppl i hate?? u knw the smiles that i have put on so far?? its all fake!! there is a meaning behind evry smile.. this life is really full of dramas.. dramas u just have to play along as if nthg has happened.. putting other ppls happiness instead of mine.. im tired.. how i wish i could sleep foreva n not to wake up..
Just have no fucking mood today... im rather unwell n im just frustated.. yesterday n today.. wtf!! damn stress at home n at skul.. fuck! Gurls owaes have no freedom of wat to do.. we owaes need to listen to others be good to them n wat we get?? we get a fucking bad treatment.. whu do u guys think we r?? ur slave?? we gurls oso do have our own feelings.. cnnt do this cnnt do that!! stop all this nonscense u guys!!! i have nvr ever stop anione frm doing anithing.. whu the hell cares.?? all of u guys are grown ups! u knw wats right n wrong fer u.. so wat if im destroying myself..?? do u knw hw i feel?? absolutely not!!! im so tortured.. im like a prisoner in the clutches of guys!! damn it!! how i wish there is no law n i could kill the ppl i hate?? u knw the smiles that i have put on so far?? its all fake!! there is a meaning behind evry smile.. this life is really full of dramas.. dramas u just have to play along as if nthg has happened.. putting other ppls happiness instead of mine.. im tired.. how i wish i could sleep foreva n not to wake up..
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
Sunday, May 20, 2007
4:10 PM
I want you to know the truth
Everything I'm hiding away
Only what I want you to hear
I can't seem to say
Maybe you're not listening
Or maybe you are scared
Or could it simply be
My heart is unprepared?
So listen carefully
To what I have to say
Please don't brush it off
Then turn and walk away
Because what I am offering you
Is worth more than any precious stone
It's assurance for the rest of your life
That you will never be alone
When you need someone to talk to
Or just someone to care
You can always count on me
Because I promise I'll be there
I want you to know the truth
Everything I'm hiding away
Only what I want you to hear
I can't seem to say
Maybe you're not listening
Or maybe you are scared
Or could it simply be
My heart is unprepared?
So listen carefully
To what I have to say
Please don't brush it off
Then turn and walk away
Because what I am offering you
Is worth more than any precious stone
It's assurance for the rest of your life
That you will never be alone
When you need someone to talk to
Or just someone to care
You can always count on me
Because I promise I'll be there
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
4:06 PM
I know I did some wrong things,
But, Baby, you know that can change.
It hurts so bad,
And it makes me feel really sad.
I miss you so much,
And wish our lips could touch.
Bobby, I just need you by my side,
So I can say, "I Love You," just one more time.
I will never love another,
Cause there is no other.
If you only give me one more chance,
I would love to share one more dance,
As tears fill my eye,
When I think of you and look up at the sky.
Just wishing you were here,
So you can wipe my lonely tear.
I don't want to say good-bye,
But every night I always cry.
I can't believe you would do this,
After that night we kissed.
I just want you to know that I love you,
And my days without you will be blue.
All I wanted was just another try,
And you wanted me to meet another guy.
I miss you a lot, Baby,
And one day you will miss me, maybe.
I love you and I miss you,
And I know you will miss me, too!
I know I did some wrong things,
But, Baby, you know that can change.
It hurts so bad,
And it makes me feel really sad.
I miss you so much,
And wish our lips could touch.
Bobby, I just need you by my side,
So I can say, "I Love You," just one more time.
I will never love another,
Cause there is no other.
If you only give me one more chance,
I would love to share one more dance,
As tears fill my eye,
When I think of you and look up at the sky.
Just wishing you were here,
So you can wipe my lonely tear.
I don't want to say good-bye,
But every night I always cry.
I can't believe you would do this,
After that night we kissed.
I just want you to know that I love you,
And my days without you will be blue.
All I wanted was just another try,
And you wanted me to meet another guy.
I miss you a lot, Baby,
And one day you will miss me, maybe.
I love you and I miss you,
And I know you will miss me, too!
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
4:01 PM
Total Confusion and Emotional Breakdown,
Where do I go next?
New Beginnings or Unfinished Endings,
All my feelings are mixed.
As I came across the path of love,
I saw two doors and only one key.
I want to make sure I pick the right one,
The one that leads to eternity.
How do I choose which way to go?
Which one to leave behind?
The one that makes everything so right,
Or the one that I know is mine?
Through one is trust and misunderstandings,
In which I've learned to need.
The other has happiness and remembered emotions
That make my heart begin to bleed.
As I try to follow all the right feelings,
It's almost like double vision.
I see too many roads and too many signs,
It's so hard to make my decision.
One door is tall and freshly painted,
It's the one everyone else would choose.
The other is old, scratched and tattered,
But it's the one I would hate to lose.
What if I choose the wrong way to go,
And leave the wrong one behind?
I will have to live a life of unhappy feelings,
And never understand what's really mine.
Total Confusion and Emotional Breakdown,
Where do I go next?
New Beginnings or Unfinished Endings,
All my feelings are mixed.
Total Confusion and Emotional Breakdown,
Where do I go next?
New Beginnings or Unfinished Endings,
All my feelings are mixed.
As I came across the path of love,
I saw two doors and only one key.
I want to make sure I pick the right one,
The one that leads to eternity.
How do I choose which way to go?
Which one to leave behind?
The one that makes everything so right,
Or the one that I know is mine?
Through one is trust and misunderstandings,
In which I've learned to need.
The other has happiness and remembered emotions
That make my heart begin to bleed.
As I try to follow all the right feelings,
It's almost like double vision.
I see too many roads and too many signs,
It's so hard to make my decision.
One door is tall and freshly painted,
It's the one everyone else would choose.
The other is old, scratched and tattered,
But it's the one I would hate to lose.
What if I choose the wrong way to go,
And leave the wrong one behind?
I will have to live a life of unhappy feelings,
And never understand what's really mine.
Total Confusion and Emotional Breakdown,
Where do I go next?
New Beginnings or Unfinished Endings,
All my feelings are mixed.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
3:56 PM
Why do you love me;
What have I ever done?
What have I ever said to you
That told you I was the one?
What is it about me
That makes you want me so much?
Is it the words I speak,
Or is it in my touch?
Why do you love me
When I act the way I do?
Why would you wanna stick around...
Is it because I love you too?
Why do you love me;
What have I ever done?
What have I ever said to you
That told you I was the one?
What is it about me
That makes you want me so much?
Is it the words I speak,
Or is it in my touch?
Why do you love me
When I act the way I do?
Why would you wanna stick around...
Is it because I love you too?
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, May 12, 2007
3:32 PM
~ My Heart Is Yours, My Sweet Lover ~ To Love And To Keep,~ With You Always Through The Day ~ And In Dreams, As You Sleep.~ So Treat It Gently, With All Your Love ~ And Never Let It Go,~ It's Yours Forever, And Thereafter ~ Just To Let You Know.~ It's Full Of Love For You ~ And Never Will It End,~ My Heart Is Yours, So Be Assured ~ On This You Can Depend.
~ My Heart Is Yours, My Sweet Lover ~ To Love And To Keep,~ With You Always Through The Day ~ And In Dreams, As You Sleep.~ So Treat It Gently, With All Your Love ~ And Never Let It Go,~ It's Yours Forever, And Thereafter ~ Just To Let You Know.~ It's Full Of Love For You ~ And Never Will It End,~ My Heart Is Yours, So Be Assured ~ On This You Can Depend.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
3:24 PM
I had a relationship with a first love the past year,And another one had not yet come near,But then you came along,And made me feel like I belonged.You made me feel like I belonged in your arms,Where I would not feel any harm,But I'm afraid of getting hurt again,So I'm going to need more time to heal Before another relationship begans.And, now that I'm finally ready,You have opened my heart for me.You made me realize and see that there are better guys out there who would treat me well,Instead of putting me through the pain of Hell.For the longest time you have waited for me,Till the day I was ready and free,Free from all the past heartache and pain.I'm just so happy you came along, I can't explain.You make me feel good about myself and that I could love again.You make me feel that a new journey is just waiting to begin.But, I must ask you for one thing before our relationship starts,Please treat me well and don't break my heart,'Cause I want to be in a relationship with no lies and no games,And I promise to you I'll do the same.So, if these things I ask you, you think you can not do,Then I don't think I should be with you,But I want you to know you're beginning to have my trust,And to tell you the truth, I think there might be an US.
I had a relationship with a first love the past year,And another one had not yet come near,But then you came along,And made me feel like I belonged.You made me feel like I belonged in your arms,Where I would not feel any harm,But I'm afraid of getting hurt again,So I'm going to need more time to heal Before another relationship begans.And, now that I'm finally ready,You have opened my heart for me.You made me realize and see that there are better guys out there who would treat me well,Instead of putting me through the pain of Hell.For the longest time you have waited for me,Till the day I was ready and free,Free from all the past heartache and pain.I'm just so happy you came along, I can't explain.You make me feel good about myself and that I could love again.You make me feel that a new journey is just waiting to begin.But, I must ask you for one thing before our relationship starts,Please treat me well and don't break my heart,'Cause I want to be in a relationship with no lies and no games,And I promise to you I'll do the same.So, if these things I ask you, you think you can not do,Then I don't think I should be with you,But I want you to know you're beginning to have my trust,And to tell you the truth, I think there might be an US.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
3:02 PM
Three simple words,
So easy to say.
Why do I hide,
When you give them away?
I guess it's hard
For me to admit,
Those three simple words
Seem so opposite.
Why I say this,
I don't really know,
Maybe one kiss,
Will help me go.
If I gave you
The key to my heart,
Will you love me,
And fill up that empty part?
I want to love you,
But I don't know how,
If you really love me,
I'll say it now.
Three simple words,
So easy to say.
Why do I hide,
When you give them away?
I guess it's hard
For me to admit,
Those three simple words
Seem so opposite.
Why I say this,
I don't really know,
Maybe one kiss,
Will help me go.
If I gave you
The key to my heart,
Will you love me,
And fill up that empty part?
I want to love you,
But I don't know how,
If you really love me,
I'll say it now.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
2:44 PM
Holding me all night long,
Cuddling tight, to our song.
You look at me with such desire,
Your passion burns hot as fire.
Been hurt before, I try to feel
That this is different, this is real.
Different emotions swim in my heart,
So much trust just torn apart.
I want to see, I want to believe,
I want to ignore thoughts that deceive.
When you hold me tight and I get lost in a kiss...
I know I can love you... much better than this.
You’re getting half, but deserve my all,
But I can't let go, afraid to fall.
I tell myself, "It's better this way,"
My heart, protected, no pain to pay.
I would be the one to fall
If I let go, and broke the wall.
Your face so sweet and so sincere,
My heart craves to hold you near.
But past mistakes haunt each day,
I tell myself, "It's better this way."
An open heart I lack and miss,
'Cuz I know I can love you much better than this.
When you feel the pain and start to cry,
I sit alone and wonder, "Why?"
Why the tears, can’t you see?
I’m not crying, nope, not me.
Don't be so emotional, it opens doors,
It causes battles, emotional wars.
Sometimes I feel it, when unaware,
Strong sensations, to really care.
When you drop to your knees from misery’s bliss,
I know I can love you... much better than this...
But I tell myself... "It's better this way."
Holding me all night long,
Cuddling tight, to our song.
You look at me with such desire,
Your passion burns hot as fire.
Been hurt before, I try to feel
That this is different, this is real.
Different emotions swim in my heart,
So much trust just torn apart.
I want to see, I want to believe,
I want to ignore thoughts that deceive.
When you hold me tight and I get lost in a kiss...
I know I can love you... much better than this.
You’re getting half, but deserve my all,
But I can't let go, afraid to fall.
I tell myself, "It's better this way,"
My heart, protected, no pain to pay.
I would be the one to fall
If I let go, and broke the wall.
Your face so sweet and so sincere,
My heart craves to hold you near.
But past mistakes haunt each day,
I tell myself, "It's better this way."
An open heart I lack and miss,
'Cuz I know I can love you much better than this.
When you feel the pain and start to cry,
I sit alone and wonder, "Why?"
Why the tears, can’t you see?
I’m not crying, nope, not me.
Don't be so emotional, it opens doors,
It causes battles, emotional wars.
Sometimes I feel it, when unaware,
Strong sensations, to really care.
When you drop to your knees from misery’s bliss,
I know I can love you... much better than this...
But I tell myself... "It's better this way."
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
Friday, May 4, 2007
10:34 PM
im sowie if i cnt say those things to u.. i mean im not the sort of person that can say those 4 letter word to u easily.. im sowie if im mean to u or tok to u in a harsh manner its just that.. i dunno hw to xplain it.. its nt that i dunn wanna mit u.. i nid time.. i wanna be crazy over u.. i wana be so in love wit u.. but sometimes i find it hard.. im just scared.. im scared that wen i love the person, the person will leave me.. i just dun wanna get hurt again.. i really hope that u mean wat u say.. some more im stress wit my studies too.. wen i heard the married couples tok on the radio about their marriage life, at first it was sweet then no communication at all.. im just scared that it would happen.. n they make up on air.. so swit.. i was almost in tears u knw.. thinking of wat happened.. i really could imagine as that has happened to me b4.. im sowie.. i sumtimes cnnt cntrl my temper.. hope u understand.. =)
im sowie if i cnt say those things to u.. i mean im not the sort of person that can say those 4 letter word to u easily.. im sowie if im mean to u or tok to u in a harsh manner its just that.. i dunno hw to xplain it.. its nt that i dunn wanna mit u.. i nid time.. i wanna be crazy over u.. i wana be so in love wit u.. but sometimes i find it hard.. im just scared.. im scared that wen i love the person, the person will leave me.. i just dun wanna get hurt again.. i really hope that u mean wat u say.. some more im stress wit my studies too.. wen i heard the married couples tok on the radio about their marriage life, at first it was sweet then no communication at all.. im just scared that it would happen.. n they make up on air.. so swit.. i was almost in tears u knw.. thinking of wat happened.. i really could imagine as that has happened to me b4.. im sowie.. i sumtimes cnnt cntrl my temper.. hope u understand.. =)
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
2:23 PM
Pouring my heart to you.
The heart I’ve locked up for so long.
I finally found someone I could talk to.
Someone I didn’t have to say a word to.
They would understand.
Even if they don’t know the half of it.
I tried.
For you.
Why don’t you talk to me anymore?
Why don’t you want to see me again?
Why did you lie?
Why are you doing this to yourself?
Why am I doing this to myself?
Why do I find myself screaming?
I scream my lungs out to you, At you, But only when you’re not there.
And when I can see you,I might as well be one the edge of the universe.
Looking down.
Ready to jump.
Whenever you come to mind…
I cry another tear.
I destroy another thousand brain cells.
From holding my breath.
Though no matter how hard I tryI can’t push you out of my mind.
I smashed another glass today.
Just to try to picture what is going on.
Inside my head.
Inside me heart.
Why does it hurt so much…
when you were never mine?
It finished.
Before it began.
Pouring my heart to you.
The heart I’ve locked up for so long.
I finally found someone I could talk to.
Someone I didn’t have to say a word to.
They would understand.
Even if they don’t know the half of it.
I tried.
For you.
Why don’t you talk to me anymore?
Why don’t you want to see me again?
Why did you lie?
Why are you doing this to yourself?
Why am I doing this to myself?
Why do I find myself screaming?
I scream my lungs out to you, At you, But only when you’re not there.
And when I can see you,I might as well be one the edge of the universe.
Looking down.
Ready to jump.
Whenever you come to mind…
I cry another tear.
I destroy another thousand brain cells.
From holding my breath.
Though no matter how hard I tryI can’t push you out of my mind.
I smashed another glass today.
Just to try to picture what is going on.
Inside my head.
Inside me heart.
Why does it hurt so much…
when you were never mine?
It finished.
Before it began.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
2:16 PM
tdy mt paper so difficult!! ape da cikgu aini.. kate je sng.. tak leh caye langsung.. hmm..
tdy mt paper so difficult!! ape da cikgu aini.. kate je sng.. tak leh caye langsung.. hmm..
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;