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ALL I WANTED WAS FOR YOU TO CARE


BUT YOU DONT SEEM TO BE BOTHERED

PRETTY LADY


Nur Fadilah
Dyla/Ilah
26 July
Sengkang

[.me.] :
Straightforward
Hysterical
Energetic
Simple
Hate me fer all I care
I dun gif a damn
Coz u r juzt jealous!

Likes:-
-me-
-my family-
-my fwens-
-my cuzzins-
-Farhana aka emo gurl-

SHOOO-OUT YOU GO


Farhana
Rara
Liyana
Fyza




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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

9:11 PM

Today, first thing in the morning meet mrs Danapal fer my hair check. haiz. every morning must meet her to do hair check. then maths lesson, i tot i was ok, but then i suddenly gt a headache, then i gt gastric, then felt want 2 vomit, go toilet vomit. slept in math class.. my head felt heavy. then after recess, went to the sick bay n rest. in the sick bay, gt sebastian n faris. first i sleep then , Mr Farid scold one student. so noisy! disturb my sleep. then faris was like poor me, want to sleep but noisy. i just laugh. then we intro each other. cool those two sec 2 boys! n cute too! =) then left me n sebastian, we talk alot as if we had known each other fer such a long time.. haha.. then went to A-math class gt test.. i still have nt recover frm my sickness. after skul, went home n change to mit Hannan. he reached at the playground early. i reached there arnd 440. OMG!!! he is so damn hot n handsome tdy. haha.. jealous. N he was shock 2 see me dress tdy.. he sae, u look pwetty tdy coz tdy fer the first time he see me dress up like a girl.. aiyoh! then we sit at the void deck and chit chat.. poor hym, his girl fwen pinch hym at the hand untill it bleed. haha..but nvm.. then until its time he have to go home coz he got werk tdy n he promised his mum that he will reached home early.. nvm.. he was weird again tdy. he sae im his first love, n dun leave hym. he made me angry again, he sae his waiting fer his national service then he sae if he eva change his character to the worse, he ask me to bash hym up n break off wit hym. i cntrolled my tears. y must he sae that? i cnt imagine that to happen. haiz. he just realise wat i said to hym was true as his cousin oso said the same thing that will happen to a guy wen he go fer national service. I wont eva leave hym. He is my everything. giving me the rite advise. he really changed me alot. i really2 pray hard that if he go fer national service, he wont change hymself. I cnt imagine my life without hym.. haiz.. just called hym, but later koling hym bck.. after meeting hym i meet my larling azian! slack at the void deck, went fer dinner n i just bought a Mickey Mouse watch! damn cute! haha.. childish me.. nw i blog n watching soccer. Singapore VS Thailand. Hope Singapore win the match. Just praying hard! haha.. =) P.s. Hannan, i wont leave u n i will continue to love u till my last breadth!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, January 29, 2007

3:40 PM

Tdy felt sick very early in the morning like 1+am. Talk on the phone for hours but felt uncomfortable at my tummy. i had the runs. Damn it. its irritating. Have to go to the toilet many times. I slept at 4+am n woke up at 630 in the morning. Cnt wake up n my tummy felt really2 uncomfortable. Then slept for a while untill my mum went out to the mosque. She say later mit her at the clinic after she had done wit her religious studies. wow! My house was really in a mess! i had to clean up b4 my mum started to nag. haha. Then my Hannan msg me saying that i dun wanna call hym issit? then i straightaway call hym bcoz i ferget that i promised hym to call hym early in the morning. I talk to hym for a while as i have to go out to see the doctor. Having headaches too. its really irritating. After going to the doctor, called Hannan while i was eating.. haha.. then called Fadli. After i put den the fon, i gt bored. so i on the comp to check my mail, update my friendster, myspace n blog. then called Hannan again. N i suddenly gt the flu. He say that my voice is sexy. stupid! im sick for goodness sake! haha.. but its ok.. haha.. He was outside to alter his pants for his graduation day at ite dover tis coming thursday. He say he have to wear smart. Damn it! Sure handsome n cute! argh! i say i want to follow he was like No, u cnt unless u gt an invitation.. argh!! I tend to get jealous if he dress up coz he will be not bad-looking, later the girls like hym.. haha.. jealous if that happens. He say dun worry coz i am his girl foreva. Stupid! n he keep disturbing me.. Nw im just addicted to this remix song real love by massari.. damn nice love song. Hannan was like yuckz, u bcome a "minah" oready. i was like NO! i just listen to the song only. i listen to diff concept of songs like metalcore, hardcore, deathmetal.. Nw my tummy is acting up again. so blog again nxt time! hehe. =)

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, January 28, 2007

3:08 PM

Talk on the phone till 4+ in the morning. First talk with my dear Hannan then Fadli. Damn tired. Im feeling quite down these few days. i just dont knw whats wrong with me. Moods swings everywhere. Then wake up at 6 in the morning to go to religious class. I felt very2 sleepy. *yawns. With all the assignments given, feeling damn stress. The worse part is that i feel that Hannan have change abit. He never msg me. N everytime i msg hym, he never reply me. Haiz. Its like as if he dont want to entertain me anymore. I called him after i reached home but he nvr answer my call. then a few hours later he msg me to call him. then i called. I talk to hym nicely first then i say to him that he is like avoiding me. but he say he nvr had the intention to ignore me. It is just that he is busy doing his own stuff n werk. I mean its up to him. All i knw is that i love hym very much.
Then Fadli say he reali2 love me. N he wanted me to bcome his princess. I am shocked! i mean it is like we come from two different werld n im attached to Hannan. Fadli say he will never let me go. i just dnno wat to do. its nt fair to Fadli. but wat can i do? i love Hannan not Fadli. i just dont knw wat to do. i just let fate decide my life. btw Fyqah is at my house nw.. she is such a cutie pie! *winkz!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, January 25, 2007

8:35 PM

early morning was abit disastrous.. A1 have to cme dwn after silent reading 2 brief abt camping tmrw, which im nt going! damn it! Mrs Kumar was talking in like an angry manner who nvr go raised up ur hand nobody even put up bcoz later we get damn bloody scolding plus nagging from her...who wants to hear that.. who the hell wants to go that camp?? so expansive! somemore in school.. then gt malay test, i nvr pass up my compo.. haha.. then gt physics test... so difficult.. aiyoh.. nvm la.. then gt chem, folded heart shape again fer farah n darx.. lance went berserk coz the class was noisy.. hahahaha.. poor hym.. after chem, YEAH! me, rara, darx, terence n jie lun went to Sentosa 2 have some fun!! abt character development again, at least this programme is much more better rather than we have counselling which is boring! we played amazing race, we had alot of fun running here, running there like a mad women. haha.. but my team lost.. but its ok.. we r nt sad but we laugh n smile all the wae bck to the starting point but we gt forfeit.. haha.. its ok.. then take photos.. yeah.. love taking photos..then hannan called.. darx n rara was like omg! her hubby koling.. i just smiled at them.. then took the bus home.. sleep inside the bus, n rara beat me to wake me up.. luckyly nvr have a heart attack.. hehe.. poor rara cnnt eat tdy.. fasting fer the church.. haha.. go bck eat alot hor.. rara, u tdy oso veri2 cute lar.. go home tired then i eat.. after taking a bath, i called hannan.. then he sae he wanna go n bath.. ok lor.. afte bathing we msg2 each other... then nw blog.. after that wanna watch tv! channel 8 9pm show.. the peak! hehehe.. alvin is so cute!! he alwaes play the good guy... so handsome! hehehehe.. k la.. i wanna watch my tv.. =)

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

9:28 PM

tdy went to skul as usual but the irritating part is this stupid bus driver drive like a tortoise.. damn it... make me late.. nt really late la.. but just nice.. lessons 4 periods of maths damn sleepy in class *yawns* haha..
nt in the mood tdy as this stupid period of mine.. irritating u knw.. then in class msg2 my beloved hannan. take so long to eply me.. aiyoh.. but nvm.. i just msg hym to mit me 430 at the usual place.. then that stupid dharshini, so noisy.. must put tape on her mouth.. maybe even cement.. wkakaka.. lance irritate me in eng lesson.. damn it! i cnt even have peace.. helo lance! me n ghazali are just fwens for goodness sake.. even though last year we everytime go home 2gether... social studies qiute boring then i fold a heart shape for my syg.. haha.. then A-maths lesson in the eureka room damn cold.. my fingers went numb.. cnt even write properly.. after that went to the math test briefing.. so damn stupid! irritating.. luckyly my cousin accompany me to the toilet to change my clothes to meet hannan.. i rushed to meet hym even though im really2 tired n have no mood.. n guess wat? he's late again.. but nvm.. i dun bother abt that.. but he owaes knw wat im thinking.. he knws that im not in the mood even though i smiled at hym.. went to the void deck as he wants to rest.. i find hym abit weird.. touch his hand felt so hot i asked hym whether he is ok or nt n he sae he just miss me.. i was like dun lie to me.. n he just keep quiet.. he owaes tries to make me happy evn though he is veri2 tired.. he have to rush to see me after his jamming sessions.. poor hym.. after werk then go jamming.. aiyoh.. tdy he was really2 weird.. he keep saying that he dun wanna lose me.. hug me so tight.. strange.. when i say i cld nt meet hym nxt week coz i have this stupid math test, he put up a force smile to make me feel better. but then i knw hym too well.. he makes a big sacrifice for me n he really respect me as a gurl.. im really2 touched.. thankz dear for tolerating my behaviour n for the sacrifices that u made.. i promise u that i wnt leave u coz u r one in the million.. nw keep koling hym but he nvr pick up, gues he oready sleep.. nvm.. rest well dear ... i oso wnt to join u in ur lala land adventure! haha.. =) n rara u r veri2 cute tdy...=)

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

8:15 PM

tdy went to school per normal... gt assembly, so short.. then gt the camp briefing, so bored.. i mean who wanna go that stupid camp which is held at school.. then some more must pay.. wat the hell! argh!! then msg wit fadli.. he said sowie to me.. he nvr even do anything wrong to me.. recess time do my malay hmwk.. liyana was like fad! u nvr do hmwk again! haha.. i just smiled back to her coz i was not in the mood.. i was nt in the mood tdy as i have my idiotic period! argh! y must it happened tdy.. damn irritating. have the cramps.. damn painful.. it gt worse after my break at malay class.. i sneak my hp to my my guy Hannan. he was like u gt lessons rite n y u r msging me?? then i juz say the tch nvr see then i msg hym.. haha.. then my cramp gt worse.. i was sent to the sick bay n there was like 3 crazy ppl inside.. they r sick n they keep laughing.. weird ppl.. i called my mum to take me hme but to my surprise, my father took me hme.. haha.. then my father fetch my mum n my cuzzin wit her cute daughter FYQAH!!!!! i was damn happy to see fyqah. she is the joy in my life... i have to bath in order to carry fyqah.. then i entertain fyqah.. quite tired but she really made my day.. she slept for like half n hour then she wake up again n i have to entertain her till she went hme about 6.30pm..
n nw im updating my blog still having the cramp n i am still tired.. im gonna have some rest nw.. tata..

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


2:42 PM

i had weird feeling.. i juz cldn't sleep... Hannan nvr msg me to call hym.. after 10+am.. i called hym.. his voice is diff.. i asked hym wats wrong wit hym.. he said he was sick.. n i made fun of hym,.. haha.. poor hym... jus like disturbing hym.. nw i knw wats the reason.. he was sick. n he insist of going to werk.. damn i was so angry.. sick sommore want to go werk... aiyoh... he said he was ok.. he gif me all sort of stupid reason coz he want to work.. he pity other ppl n nt pity hymself.. i mean wat the hack! he is sick for goodness sake... he is so stubborn.. he thinks he is a machine that cn operate 24/7 without proper rest.. i have to be patient tdy as im fasting.. i juz let hym do wat he wants as thats wats he wants.. but im so worried abt hym n worried that something might happened to hym.. he jus sae, im fine.. im ok coz im Hannan the hero.. im still worried abt hym rite nw.. waiting fer hym to finish his werk n come bck home to rest.. poor hym.. in the afternoon i keep calling hym to find out how was he.. n he ans is still the same.. im ok.. but actually he's nt.. he cn fool anibody but not me certainly, n he knws it.. ok fer nw, my mum nags at me fer using the comp.. haha.. late at nite oready.. have to wake up early tmrw to go religious class.. man, it is quite boring bcoz of the new rulez, rulez n rulez.. damn it.. zeemah, mit me at the void deck tmrw at 7 okies... i'll end here.. nite2.. muackz to whoeva that read this! haha

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


2:39 PM

tdy, after skul, meeting Hannan.. yeah.. damn tired.. but then i juz mit hym n i have to go to the library to find my stuff.. he actually was reluctant to accompany me to the library as he juz hates the library.. i wonder y.. go home changed my clothes n took 159 to mit hym at amk mrt station first.. the air-con inside the buz was so nice till my eyes fill so heavy.. i nearly dozed off inside the bus untill it was a grp of guys was so chaotic. wen i opened my eyes, i was shocked to see my guy Hannan n his bandmates. he didn't notice me till i msg hym saying that i was at the back of the bus.. n he looked bck.. haha.. i juz keep quiet n njoy the cooling air-con till it was time to alight the bus.. haiz.. i wish i cld stay longer in the bus.. afther drping off the bus, he dun want to walk.. he sae let his bandmates walk off first.. he wanted to keep our relationship low profile but i guess evrything was blurted out at the bus stop.. i have to drag hym to bishan library.. he was actually bored.. poor hym.. but nvm.. juz fer one dae.. it was chaotic at the library n he cnt stop tickling me.. grrr.. haha.. he cnt wait to get out of the library but on one cndition.. he have to acmpany me to take pic wit me.. im so evil.. he was like oh no! haha.. saw some of my fwen there.. kartik dear.. haha.. mish hym.. he graduated oready.. so sad... miss the fun we had.. yeah.. then wen to the neoprint shop, he was like, hey that shop looks nice.. i was like hey cmon, i had to pull hym...n finally we took photo.. yeah.. he was like wat pose do u wnt me to do.. i sae juz do wateva u want.. then after taking photo, he say, i did nt knw that i was good looking, i was like duh! i was saying that many times wen i went out wit hym but he juz woud'nt believe me..nw he realise it.. n my fwens was like, he's so cute!! so jealous.. haha.. but nvm.. after meeting hym, meet up wit my sis fyza n my larling fana.. crazy ppl mit crazy ppl = hysterical.. hahahad fun wit u my larling.. love u loads fana! wat a tired day tdy... *yawns

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;